Sunday, January 9, 2011

New Year...New Me

A tide has turned in my life.
I can't really discuss it right now but it's been very hard...
and heartbreaking.

Things are changing at a rate that I can't really keep up with.
I have done a great deal of soul searching
and praying
and crying
to try to find meaning to all of this.

I know that one thing is for certain.
I have to take some time to devote to me.
I'm still forever the devoted wife and mother but I feel like
I'm losing myself.
When I look into the mirror I don't see myself anymore.
I see someone trying to be what others want.
I see a woman that is afraid to step out because I'm afraid to fail.
I see a woman who has pushed herself to the limit to live up to unrealistic expectations
and hates to say "No."

I know that I can't be alone in this.
If there is anyone else who feels the way I do, then make this year a great one.
Take time for yourself.
Do the things that make you happy.
Say "No" once in a while.

I know that I will.

P.S. The Divine Mr. M and I have started to renovate
our farmhouse and we can't wait to share it with you!!!


  1. I know where you are coming from. I have a REALLY hard time saying the simple word, "no", and have promised myself that I'm going to really try and work on that this year. Happy New Year and New Beginnings to you!!

    Take care, Sue

  2. I'll be praying for you my friend! Saying NO is OK, I have had to learn to do that too:) Have a blessed day! I can't wait to see your renovation project! HUGS!

  3. Girl, you have all my prayers and all my love, you know that.

    I understand where you are right now, but I know that you are a fighter and a winner...I really believe that 2011 is gonna be your year!

    I'm here, just a phone call away...


  4. Here's to finding you again honey!!!!

  5. Hang in there sweetie.
    sounds like you have a wonderful attitude to help get you through the hard stuff!!

  6. Oh, I am sorry to hear that you have been having a difficult time & when you're ready you can tell us. Just remember that you need to take time for you, sounds good coming from someone that does the same thing! I guess it's a lesson that we can all learn and grow from!

    Good luck with your house, cannot wait to see your pictures!

    Sending good thoughts, prayers & hugs your way!


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