New Year...New Me

A tide has turned in my life.

I can't really discuss it right now but it's been very hard...

and heartbreaking.

Things are changing at a rate that I can't really keep up with.

I have done a great deal of soul searching

and praying

and crying

to try to find meaning to all of this.

I know that one thing is for certain.

I have to take some time to devote to me.

I'm still forever the devoted wife and mother but I feel like

I'm losing myself.

When I look into the mirror I don't see myself anymore.

I see someone trying to be what others want.

I see a woman that is afraid to step out because I'm afraid to fail.

I see a woman who has pushed herself to the limit to live up to unrealistic expectations

and hates to say "No."

I know that I can't be alone in this.

If there is anyone else who feels the way I do, then make this year a great one.

Take time for yourself.

Do the things that make you happy.

Say "No" once in a while.

I know that I will.

P.S. The Divine Mr. M and I have started to renovate

our farmhouse and we can't wait to share it with you!!!