Breaking Up is Hard To Do

 

 

Yep....That's me.

 

 

By myself.

 

I haven't blogged this year because this year has been too painful.

 

I lost my dear uncle and best friend in January.

Then I had surgery in April.

The surgeon accidentally paralyzed my stomach.

I've been in the hospital almost this entire year.

 

I then lost my aunt...who I didn't get to say goodbye to because I was hospitalized.

 

Now I've lost my marriage.

The Divine Mr. M turned out not to be so divine after all.

He couldn't take me being sick.

He wanted out.

 

So here I am.

Me and my sons.

 

The good news in all of this is that I have moved closer to family.

I'm getting my own place and I truly get to show off my own style.

 

I can't wait to get back into the blogging world again and share my finds with yall.

 

It's coming in a few weeks.

 

For all of you who have stood by me...I love ya'll.

I started a blog to keep me sane when I moved out to no man's land with Mr. M.

I'm glad to reconnect and get back to the things that I love.

 

I can't wait to hear from ya'll!!

 



Home Again

I'm writing this blog with a whole in my heart.

Rohnny Darryl Price, age 55, went home to be with the Lord

on Januar 21st, 2012.

He was my uncle.

Yet, he was so much more.

He was like a father and a big brother to me.

He was my greatest fan and my best friend.

There has never been a major life event that he wasn't there for.

From my kindergarten graduation, to my marriage to The Divine Mr. M,

Rohnny has always been there for me.

I can never repay him for all that he has done for me.

He fought a good fight,

He kept the faith,

and he has finished his course.

I can only hope that at the end of his life,

I gave to him what he has given me for all of mine....

my very best.

I love you Rohnny

and I miss you more than words can say.

The love that I have for you is immeasurable.

All he wanted in his final days was to go home and be at peace.

I know that you are home again and I hope that you have found peace

at the throne of God.

"Later Gator"........

I'm Aliiiiiive!!!!

I know that almost all...and I do mean all of you

thought that I have died and fallen off the face of the planet.

On the contrary....

I've been busy...

beyond busy...

EXTREMELY busy....

This has been an insane year for me.

It's been a trying time for The Divine Mr. M and me.

There was a very painful custody battle

and now we are facing the death of a family member.

Mix all that in with one child in college

and the other three in just about every extracurricular activity

that you can imagine and life goes by quickly.

Before I even realized it

almost an entire year has gone by without blogging and connecting with ya'll.

I'm oh so sorry.

I miss ya'll and I'm back!!!!

I won't be here on a daily basis, but I am definitely going to be here at least once a week if I can.

The Divine Mr. M and I have been remodeling the farmhouse.

 We are finishing up the kitchen even as I type.

(okay...Mr. M is finishing up. I had to give him credit because

 he's on all fours laying the floor and giving me the stank eye.")

I can't wait to show ya'll!!!

I know that I've lost a few readers and I understand but I thank all of ya'll who have hung in there with me.

I have to go now....

being back from the dead has made me hungry.

Anyone know where I can't get some tasty brains this time of night?

I'm changing

This spring has shown all kinds of changes for me.

Changes with my health, my family, my house and my way of life in general.

Be it good or bad...I'm changing.

I can't wait to show ya'll all the transformations that have been going on around me!!!

I think ya'll are going to like them.

Icicle thoughts

DROPS OF CHARACTER

Have you ever watched an ICICLE form?

Did you notice how the dripping water froze, ......one drop

at a time, ....until the icicle was a foot long.... or more?



If the water was clean, the icicle remained clear and sparkled

brightly in the sun, but if the water was slightly muddy, the

icicle looked cloudy, its beauty spoiled.



Our character is formed in like manner.

Each thought or feeling adds its influence.

Each decision we make - both great and small contributes its part.



Everything we take into our mind:

impressions

experiences

images/words help create our character.



Acts that develop habits of hate, falsehood, & evil intent mar and

eventually destroy us---but habits born of love, truth & goodness

silently mold us into the image of God!



Character is what you are in the dark.

 

 

I read this once in a public speaking class in college

and it truly made an impression on me.

 

Whenever I see icicles, I always think of this passage.

It constantly reminds me to maintain my character at all time because I personally

want my icicle to be beautiful and sparkly.

 

What is your icicle like?

Bust a Move

"Don't just stand there....bust a move!"..Young MC

That's what I told myself this week.

I could either keep moping and feeling down

or I could get up and do something.

So that's what I've done.

The divine Mr. M is putting in a new closet system for me

and I just had to take advantage of a golden opportunity.

Since everything was off the shelves, I painted the wall

a nice off white called French Canvas .

It still looked kinda.....mmmmpphh.

So I  decided to break out a stencil that I've been saving for some pillows and stencil the wall.

Why the closet?

Because I'm a big, fat chicken.

I love the look of stenciled walls but would never commit to myself doing it in a major room.

I can barely sign my name legibly, yet alone paint.

So, I'm starting with the closet.

I'm stepping out on a limb and trying something new!

I can't wait to show ya'll the fininshed product.

Besides, if it's not that great......

only Mr. M and I have to look at it everyday.

New Year...New Me

A tide has turned in my life.

I can't really discuss it right now but it's been very hard...

and heartbreaking.

Things are changing at a rate that I can't really keep up with.

I have done a great deal of soul searching

and praying

and crying

to try to find meaning to all of this.

I know that one thing is for certain.

I have to take some time to devote to me.

I'm still forever the devoted wife and mother but I feel like

I'm losing myself.

When I look into the mirror I don't see myself anymore.

I see someone trying to be what others want.

I see a woman that is afraid to step out because I'm afraid to fail.

I see a woman who has pushed herself to the limit to live up to unrealistic expectations

and hates to say "No."

I know that I can't be alone in this.

If there is anyone else who feels the way I do, then make this year a great one.

Take time for yourself.

Do the things that make you happy.

Say "No" once in a while.

I know that I will.

P.S. The Divine Mr. M and I have started to renovate

our farmhouse and we can't wait to share it with you!!!